New Weight today

Yesterday and today I've been in the 81's!!!!! Yesterday at 81.7, today at 81.5 !!!! Oh my hard work is paying off!!! I am now 179.3 pounds!!! WOOHOO!!! I'm happy =)

Weird Dreams

I had a very strange dream last night. Some guy that I didn't even know was in it. I was in a weird place. Like, an alternate world only it wasn't. I didn't like it when I looked at it from my own point of view but from whoever I was in the dream it was all I knew. I dreamed I was with this guy. I don't know who he was. I didn't see his face. He was someone I really liked though. Someone I lusted after as well as loved. Or maybe not loved just yet but really cared about. It was strange. My dreams can be a bit weird sometimes. Like in this one, I dreamed I was in a back yard and there was a large fence behind the house. I stepped onto the picnic table that was outside and looked over the fence and saw the largest pile of HUGE tires I've ever seen and a bit machine moving things around. It was a bit scary. It was like a junk yard but it looked a bit dangerous. I mean, Tires the size of a house piled up super high without anything holding it up. Scary. And apparently there were stray cats that lived there. Poor things. My cats weren't there though. Weird dream I tell ya! I also dreamed, with that guy in my dream, that he somehow got hurt and we had to take him to emergency or something but we were inside this huge building and it was taking forever to get out of there because of the amount of people around us! We hopped onto one of those indoor buggies, cars, whatever you call them, and the person started driving us out of there. Then we ran into a huge crowd that would NOT move out of the WAY! Then the driver took off and I had to take over and drive and ran over a few people. I didn't care though. I wanted to leave and get my guy some medical help. After that I think I woke up. Too bad!

The other night though I had another weird dream. I dreamed of the Newsboys. Oh they were in my dream! But not the new Newsboys. Phil Joel, Peter Furler and I think Jody Davis and Duncan Phillips were there and Jeff was probably somewhere in the background. But it was the newsboys I grew up loving. I miss them! :( But in my dream Phil had cut his hair short! ... oh my it was strange but he still looked cute and was as sweet as ever. I dreamed they were at my home and they were suppose to have a show in my back yard but it was raining so we cancelled and sat around and had coffee for a little while before they had to take off again. The figured they'd get a head start since they had to cancel the show. Too bad. It would have been cool to have my own concert in my dream. LOL Me and my weird dreams. I love them!

~L

New Weight Monday

I weighed myself this morning and it finally said 82.8.... 82's!!!!!!!! I'm going to try my best to keep it. I hope to get a workout sometime today. Maybe during Mikael's nap. We'll see. Yay! :)

Mad at myself...

I didn't exercise yesterday, and I didn't today either. I wanted to go to the gym today but I wanted to do so many other things here at home and I haven't exercised yet either. Oh well. :( I haven't eaten too much today and will definitely not eat anything else tonight either. Not even dessert. I weighed myself this morning and I weighed 83.7 =( I hate that!!! Of course I weigh myself all the time. And I think my body is going to be retaining water here very soon because of the witch. Blah! Being a girl sucks sometimes. I wish I could step it up and just exercise. I don't know. I somehow lost all my motivation...well maybe not all of it but some of it. After my Paris trip it seems is when it happened. I don't know what's wrong with me. It might also be because of the cold and snow outside. I hate going out into the cold. I'll see if I can go tomorrow, Saturday AND Sunday to the gym. Get away for a little while. :) I don't know. I'll see how much I weigh in the morning even  though I haven't worked out the past couple days. I try not to over eat so that should count as something right? hmmm.... =/

~L

Weigh in Wednesday

I forgot to weigh myself first thing this morning. It just slipped my mind. So I weighed myself at about 1:30 pm after I've had a small bowl of cereal, a mug of coffee, and my two chicken quesadillas with lots of salad in each of them, and some faris bris carbonated water. I love that stuff! And I weighed 84.2. But I will weigh myself again in the morning. I want to work out today but I'm too tired/lazy to do it. Ugh. I know I have to though especially now that I have a new goal in mind. To get to 81 kilos. =) OR 80 would be best actually. I'm aiming for Christmas for the new weight goal. But with Thanksgiving dinner and Christmas dinner coming up, I'm not so sure if I'll be able to do it. I'll have to really workout every single day on the weeks that I will be eating those foods. Hmm...

~L

New Goal

I just found out how much my dad weighs with his clothes and shoes on. 179 pounds. Well, looks like I have a new goal now. I really really want to get lower than his weight just so I can prove to myself, and to them, but mostly to myself that I CAN do it! So right now I'm at 83.4 kilos. I want to get down to 79.5. In pounds I'm at 183 pounds and want to get down to 175 pounds. I wonder how long it will take me? This should be enough motivation for me right now. I WILL exercise tomorrow. I WILL I WILL!!! I am desperate. I want to lose this damn weight! :) hehehe

Morning Weigh In

So today I got on the scale...again. It drives me crazy sometimes but I love keeping track of my weight loss :)
So today it said 83.4.  Yay! That's 183.5 pounds. Another .5 or more pounds until 182 point something. Can't wait!!!

Working out...

I usually have to push myself each day to exercise but I'm glad I do workout because I am seeing results now. Seriously. I can't wait to hit 82 kilos :) Or 80. 79.....Ahh.... Hopefully someday! I love looking forward to a new weight each week. But once a month my body retains water and I usually hate myself during those days because when I step on the scale I gain like two pounds in just a couple days. It's quite irritating but it disappears after a few days and I'm usually back to normal and that weight comes off again. I had to push myself to workout today. I hate working out but its just for 20 minutes so it's not that bad. but now I gotta shower because I'm all sweaty. It's a funny thing...I sweat more here at home than I do at the gym but at the gym I get some treadmill time. Hmm...

Rant/Vent...And other things...

Well I really have no where to go for support besides my blog here and I know no one but me is reading it. It's kind of hard not having any sort of support. Of course my husband supports me but not 100%. I mean, seriously....he still has sodas in the house and candy and chips and whatever else that's unhealthy. In my weakest moments I do go for a chocolate or sometimes a drink of soda. It's hard still having junk food in the house and not being able to do much about it. I told Bjørn that I will no longer buy him soda. He is on his own. I'll buy my own carbonated water though. I bought some good Farris lemon/lemongrass that tastes just like 7up except without all the sugar. It even tastes sweet to me because my taste buds are so used to water these days. Whenever I do drink something sweet like soda, it tastes super sweet to me.

But anyway, yesterday I told my parents that I've lost almost 20 pounds. It's about 18.5 pounds right now that I've lost. I am very proud of myself! Of course my parents only half believe me. I don't think they want to believe that I am losing weight. And all I am doing is eating right, and exercising. No sodas or sweets or high in fat midnight snacks. I try to cut off my food intake at around 8pm. If I want something after that I will stick to a small glass of orange juice or water or something. I am trying to go to bed earlier these days too even if it just means laying in bed watching shows on my iPod. :) I love my iPod!!!

Anyway, my dad told my mom yesterday that I shouldn't lose any more weight because I might pass out or something. Knowing my dad, he pretty much thinks it's unhealthy to lose any more weight than I already have. I told my mom that I am way over weight and I need to be closer to my ideal weight which is about 120 pounds. I'm short so I need to be a lot thinner and weighing less. I told them that I am NOT done losing weight. I will be a lot thinner next summer when they see me I'm sure. I mean, I've lost 20 pounds in 2 months just about. I'm not about to finish. In 4 months I should have lost at least 40 pounds. I'm aiming for a 60 pound weight loss by may but that's reaching a bit too far. I'll see how far I can take it. It's a slow process but it's ok. I'm still young. I'm glad I've started now at 30 then never starting at all! My biggest fear that got me onto this whole weight loss thing in the first place was....being 50-60 years old and still overweight but with really saggy skin everywhere. I do NOT want to be old and overweight. Ugh! That would be the worst.

But my dad really ticked me off. I mean, seriously...it's unhealthy to lose weight? How? When you lose weight you are even MORE healthier. He told me himself that he doesn't plan on losing any more weight because he says he needs that fat for his work. He still works so he thinks he needs to be overweight in order to get through his day. If only he knew that being thinner, or closer to your ideal weight, gives you much more energy so you can work even more. I'm sure he won't have very many knee problems either if only he lost at least 20 pounds. I'm sure he won't be as tired AND the most important thing.......I'm sure he would eventually get taken OFF his diabetes 2 medication. But does he believe me? No. One day in my future I am going to have to go to the Dr. with him just so I can ask him personally. One day in my future when I do look physically different. Hopefully by next summer.

I am really looking forward to seeing peoples faces when they see me in person next summer. Especially one person in particular....Charlene. She's been over weight for a long time and a long time ago she was losing weight but then gained it all back again. I know she's been on a roller coaster all her life. Wait til she sees me. I hope she notices a change though. Like .... a big one. I know this is one thing that motivates me. Keeps me going. I want to be able to tell her "I just exercise and watch what I eat. I don't drink soda anymore or eat sweets". "Diet and exercise" That's all it takes! I know she's taken diet pills in the past. She's always taken them.

One thing I'm really looking forward to though is having more confidence in myself. And all the shopping I'll get to do!!! Maybe I'll finally be able to own a little black dress! :) Ooo!!!

~L

Measurements

I should have done this a long time ago when I first started losing weight but I just did it now, somewhat. They aren't 100% exact since I had to measure myself but here are my measurements so far.


waist=95
hips=119
upper thigh (biggest part)=75
lower thigh=54
calf upper (right below knee)= 45
upper arm=40
lower arm (below elbow)=27
chest (under breasts)=91

I won't measure myself again until around Christmas. Hopefully I will lose at least a couple cm's more in certain places. :) Hmm but i'm not going to keep my hopes up. I'll just keep exercising and eating right. 

~L

New Weight

Well I haven't done much of a workout this past week. I've been a bit lazy I guess. I love being lazy sometimes. :) Anyway, yesterday morning I weighed myself and I weighed.....83.6!!!! This morning it was 83.9. OHhh I am loving the 83's!!! My goal now is to get to 82 point something and it will be a total of 10 kilos lost! How weird is that? I know I am losing weight slowly and it's a good thing it's going slow but ... I sometimes just don't see it. No one has said anything to me yet which makes me believe that I am not losing anything at all. It's kind of discouraging. My husband says he can tell but he's just being nice to me is what I think. Holly didn't say anything but then again she doesn't really notice things like that. No one at the AWC said anything about my weight loss. I guess you really can't tell. Oh well. I'll keep doing what I'm doing and lose as much as I can and hopefully someday sometime someone will tell me that I definitely do look different. That's all I want. :( Is that so much to ask? I don't know if there is a difference. I guess I should have measured myself before the weight loss...Oh well. I'll do it soon I think. And post it here. Gtg..dinner.

After my Vacation...Weight

Well my friend Holly arrived on the 5th of November. The day after we went to Paris and spent the weekend there walking around the city. It was raining off and on, sometimes it was bad and sometimes just a small drizzle which I could handle. =) I totally didn't diet during the time she was here. I don't know why really. I could have gone healthy but I figured I needed the calories because of all the walking we were going to be doing. I was right. This morning I weighed myself and I only weighed 84.1!!!! Amazing. Yesterday morning I weighed 84.4. Holly last used the scale in the green room and I am going to just leave it there so I can weigh myself in the mornings, after using the toilet first. I think that helps a bit. :) but 84.1!??? Weird. I've been eating lots just junk lately too. Today though, I am going back to exercising and dieting. Not really sure about the exercise since I got to clean this house from top to bottom again. I'll probably count that as my exercise for today. Tomorrow though I got to prepare myself a bit and head to the gym. I also need to go shopping for a park dress for Jeanette so I might do that afterwards. I am looking forward to going to the gym. I think it's nice to just get out a bit. Well, I just needed to blog my vacation and weight. I honestly was a bit scared that I was going to gain five pounds. I still might gain a pound or so but at least now I won't be eating so much junk. I have lots of junk in the house too. ugh! So much candy. I have to organize the kitchen a bit and hide it all. Bleh!

~L

Weigh in Wednesday Yesterday

Well, yesterday was Weigh in Wednesday. I kind of hoped I had gone down to 84 point something but I didn't. I was exactly at 85. And that's understandable because I didn't really exercise last week and kind of cheated on my diet. I ate a few pieces of candy. I felt horrible afterwards but what could I do about it. Like I have said before, I am not in a big huge rush to lose all this weight. I figure 1-2 pounds weight loss per weeks is sufficient for me.

This morning though, I wanted to weigh myself since last night I ate dinner but didn't have anything else after dinner. I figured I ate enough calories at dinner for the entire night. I was hungry though right before I went to bed but I ignored it. I should have just drank water but I was too tired to get up out of bed. :) So I hopped onto the scale this morning before getting dressed. And the scale said 84.9!!! Well, it's good that I'm finally in the 84's! That's what I was hoping for. Now, after today I won't be exercising much. I'll just have to watch what I eat big time. I'll be doing enough walking though so that will be my daily exercise this weekend and all next week. Like I said, I just have to watch what I eat. Sounds easier than it really is. Tomorrow for dinner for example, I'm making Fårikål or Elk steak. I haven't decided yet. Probably Elk Steak...or maybe Fårikål. Gah! I don't know! But whatever I do make has to be good :) and I'll have to just watch my intake. Stop the moment I am not hungry anymore.

I have lots to do today. I'm hoping that is enough exercise for today since I am not going to the gym. I've got to do laundry, wash all bed sheets and blankets in this house. Fix the blue room and especially the green room since that is where Holly is sleeping while she is here. Gosh I can't believe she is coming! :) No one has ever done this before. I am so excited! Paris! Here I come! But first...lots of housework. Hopefully I'll burn enough calories. If not then I might do some sort of exercise later today. I don't know though.

Well that's it for today.

~L

The day before

I know last night I completely cheated on my diet and ate I don't know how many calories worth of candy. I mostly ate it because I was feeling down that I couldn't take my little boy and little girl trick or treating. It was after all Halloween night. :-( So I hate a couple of chocolates and tonights dinner I think I overstuffed myself just a teeny bit. Oops. Oh well though. I did exercise earlier today. I hate doing those exercises sometimes but I know I feel better about myself afterwards. Well, tonight just for kicks I decided to weigh myself. I have been feeling slightly bloated all evening, probably because of dinner. Here I sit, at 11pm, getting a bit hungry again but I'm going to ignore it. Go drink some water, or saft, and go to bed. I'll eat some breakfast in the morning, get my kids ready and then right after head to the gym to break a sweat. :) Then I'll do a bit of shopping after that.

Anyway tonight the scale said 85kilos!!!!!! No point somethings. Just straight 85!!! OMG. I haven't even exercised the past few days and here I am at 85 kilos!!! I need to step it up a bit. I seriously can't wait to hit 84!!!!!! Ahhh!! I'm excited! :) I'll weigh myself again in the morning of course. I wonder what that's gonna say :)

goodnight!

~L

Another weigh in

Just a quick note to say that this morning I decided to weigh myself since last night I did and I weighed 86.4. I figured maybe waiting until morning I might lose a bit more. Well I did! This morning I weighed in at 85.8 kilos! (188 pounds!!!) I am so excited! :) I know a lot of unhealthy eating will be coming up in the next week so I really have to try to reduce my intake like I did yesterday. I didn't even get that hungry surprisingly enough! I was happy.

Today's Food:

Breakfast: A bowl of oatmeal with a spoonful of sugar free strawberry jam and a cup of coffee with sugar pill.

Lunch: ?

Dinner: Two chicken sandwiches, one chicken breast. Or one chicken sandwich and a big salad.

Dessert: ?

Will write more later.


~L

Weigh in Wednesday

Well today is Wednesday and that means its weigh in day. First thing I did this morning after waking up was step on the scale. I figured it would be best to weigh myself at least once a week. It's incredibly hard waiting for that entire week though to weigh myself. My scale just sits there calling my name every time I go into the bathroom. lol

Wednesday Weigh Ins:

10-20-2010: 86.5 kilos (190pounds)
10-27-2010: 86 kilos (189 pounds)

1 pound loss since last week.

This is a bit discouraging considering I've been cutting down my food intake slowly. I've been trying to use whatever I eat as energy. Well, I've been trying to change my way of thinking when it comes to food. (Food for energy, not for fun) or I guess you could also say (eat to live not live to eat) :) I like that one better I think. I just have to keep that mind set and whenever I do eat, enjoy it. I've also been practicing portion control. I've been trying to stop myself before I get way too full. I think I'm doing alright in that area! I've also been trying to eat as healthy as possible. Looking at the back of every package I buy to see the nutrition facts, if you could even call them that here. Some products are better than others when it comes to that. :)

Well let's see. Yesterday for breakfast I ate a bowl of fiber rich cereal with skim milk. I also drank a cup of green tea instant coffee with just one sugar pill. I am really getting use to drinking my coffee with no cream. :) Cream = more calories = weight gain = no thanks! For lunch I had a huge salad. I had leftover salad from the night before and there's no way I'm throwing stuff like that out. It's good for at least one day in the fridge. So I added some more cucumbers, a tomato, some leftover low fat cheese I had from dinner the night before. Again, even in small amounts I still don't throw it out especially if I think I can use it in a salad the next day. :) I also added a couple spoons of sundried tomatoes, 4 green olives because I just bought them and they are so tasty! Oh yes I also toasted two whole weight pieces of bread, added a teeny bit of butter even though I should have used olive oil instead! Grr! And some garlic powder with a bit of salt. I added some leftover guacamole (mixed with sour cream) I had from the night before. Everything was really good! Oh yes I also added a couple slices of turkey, chopped, for a bit or protein. I ate a yogurt after this. And drank lots of water as well.

Yesterday morning, Tuesday, I also went to the gym for a work out. I think I was there for a little over an hour. 1.5 hours I think. I was gone awhile. I also went grocery shopping afterwards, then came home to eat my salad. I was starving after working out!

Then later for dinner I made a salad, kjøttkaker (meat cakes? kind of like meatballs), some gravy, and potato wedges. Oh yes and also peas. I made the gravy and potato wedges mostly for my husband, and kids, but mostly my husband. I know how much he loves potatoes so I bought some "lower fat" frozen potatoes and they are insanely full of calories even though they say "lower fat" Whatever! Complete BS! So I didn't have any at all. Maybe one bite of one but that's it. I also bought some organic low fat meat patties. Wow! They were so good! One entire package was about 200 calories! Amazing! These will be replacing our meatballs. I also made the gravy for my husband. I deciliter is about 25 calories. I had a couple spoonfuls over my meatballs but I actually could have gone without putting it on too. My kids aren't really into gravy. It's mostly my husband that loves it. I could definitely live without it too. I also made a salad with some nice greens, cucumber, tomato, sundried tomatoes, balsamic vinegar, and olive oil, and a bit of salt. Yum!!! It's super delicious just like that! I boiled some peas and drained them and put just a bit of salt on them and my kids LOVED them! I also liked them. That's basically what I had on my plate: salad, peas, 3 kjøttkaker, a couple spoonfuls of brown gravy. The kids had some potatoes but they didn't even touch them. Jeanette probably ate a few but she mostly loved the peas and kjøttkaker. Mikael was the same. Neither of them had gravy. My husband on the other hand had potatoes and kjøttkaker, a spoonful of peas (he HATES veggies, don't know what the heck is wrong with him!) a bit of salad too, and gravy on his meat patties. Yep! I told him I am just not going to bother with the gravy next time because no one really likes it besides him! Same with the potatoes (fries). We could definitely live without them. I'd rather make fresh potatoes as well.

I also have to get better with prepping my meals the day before or earlier in the day. If I want to make potatoes for dinner I should cut them in the morning and slice them then put them in a plastic bowl with water and save them for later that night. It would definitely save me time on dinner! And it's a bit healthier too I think since the packaged fries at the store usually are soaked with some sort of oil and I think that's where all the calories are coming from. I don't know though. Potatoes are really starchy and high in calories to begin with. At least I think so.

Last night I also made an apple cake. A lower calorie apple cake at that. I reduced the sugar significantly and used Splenda instead. I also used reduced sugar applesauce I bought the other day. I think I can reduce the sugar completely or just add a spoonful next time because it did turn out pretty sweet. It was good though! :) I liked it. So did Jeanette. She had two pieces and another piece I packed for her lunch today.

For breakfast today so far I've had my typical mug of black green tea coffee with a sugar pill to sweeten it a bit. No cream! Yay! Two slices of bread with low fat butter and salami slices. Yum. Not sure what I'm having for lunch yet though. Maybe some soup or more slices of bread. I need to learn to eat more during the day though. Exercise and then eat less at night. No more food after 7-8pm! That's what my chewing gum should be for. :)

Well that's it for today. I'll try to blog more during the week so I won't have so much to write about in one post.

~L

Today

Woke up today. I ate breakfast with my kids. I ate a bowl of oatmeal with just a small sprinkle of sugar and some cinnamon on top. I need to buy substitute sugar. I also had a cup of green tea instant coffee with one sugar pill. =) Then later for lunch I had a breakfast burrito that was leftover from yesterday. I made scrambled eggs with onion and tomatoes and chives. Wrapped it in a whole wheat tortilla. Then I made a quesadilla with a slice of turkey after that. I used low fat cheese of course. Gosh that stuff is so expensive compared to regular cheese! Sheesh! Who ever said eating healthy is cheap? It's not really. It's silly expensive unfortunately!!! Especially here in Norway. Oh and I also had two glasses of water with lunch and a banana after. I've had a couple glasses of water after that. One before my work out and one after. I did Jillian Michael's 30day shred work out with heavier weights that I bought last week. I really broke out into a sweat this time! :) I feel great! My son was exercising with me too. He tries to do jumping jacks and he looks so silly and adorable when he does them with me! He also tried doing a few of the other exercises with me. Such a silly boy. :) He had me laughing half the time I was exercising.

Well, today I'm trying not to get discouraged. I say that I've lost 10-12 pounds already but I just don't feel it! Not really anyway. I keep thinking that there is no way I'll lose more weight. I'm permanently the way that I am now. I'm destined to be this way for the rest of my life. I hate this negative feeling. I know the exercises are doing something. But I don't know. I don't think I'll believe it until I see it. I've seen some results so far just by not drinking soda. But is that it? That's the only results I'm going to see? I guess it didn't help much when I stepped onto the scale and it's not even Wednesday yet! Ugh! And it's not good that it's almost that time of month. I hate it! But I'd rather get it over with now since in just a couple weeks I'll be in Paris!!! =) My friend Holly is arriving...well gosh darn. Next Week!! Ahhh! Exciting! I'm going to not really exercise during her time here. We'll be walking around plenty in those days so I'll just watch what I eat. I'll try to anyway! We'll see how it goes! I do plan on drinking wine in Paris though! :) No stopping me there! It's going to be way difficult saying no to the macarons though! Mmm I might eat one or two if we walk by a bakery :-P Well that's it for today.

Fajitas for dinner. I'm going to grill them and then slice them and put them in whole weight tortillas with some light sour cream and salsa. I think I'll cut out the cheese this time to save calories though. I'll buy some greens and make myself a salad instead I think. My whole family is having the same. I'll shred some cheese for them though. And for my son, since he's so darn picky, I'll cut some chicken in cubes for him and serve him some veggies or some sort. :) Same for my daughter but she's good at eating what the rest of us eat. Oh ... I might make some Mexican rice with brown rice. At least a little bit of it! Maybe Mikael will love that!


~L

First Post

I thought it would be a good idea if I could start blogging about my day to day fight with this weight loss thing. I think it will be a great way of getting things out and I hope it helps me a bit on this journey of mine. Now, I'm not in a big rush to lose the weight even though I'd love to lose 50 pounds in 6 weeks. But, I can't really do that. I have a family to take care of. It is incredibly hard trying to take care of myself and my family at the same time. It's even harder knowing that no matter what I will be doing, there will always be candy, chips, and soda in this house thanks to my husband with the crazy metabolism. I hate it how, when I mention that I have been losing at least one pound per week, he turns it around and makes it about himself and just jokes with me saying "I lose 10 pounds in my sleep!"... Well guess what buddy? I don't give a hoot about you. I care about myself only and I wish he would just shush it and focus on me instead. Stop trying to put me down! I'm working hard and you aren't helping any! Guess what? I will no longer be buying you chips and sodas. Nope! If you want them you better go buy them yourself and just keep them away from me. I don't mind buying them for my kids every now and then though but I don't even want to do that anymore. I'd rather look for a healthy alternative to chips. I've been doing that a lot lately. Looking at the back of every product I buy and trying to translate things in my head. Norway doesn't have the great nutrition facts that the USA has. Even when I buy American items sometimes, people here usually cover them with a new label with the stupid, useless, food facts on them. So when I peel that away, the nutrition facts are useless to me. But of course there is the internet. I can just look it up right? :) Well I can't look up Norwegian foods. It's impossible for me to count calories here. I just try to look out for the bad stuff and I am trying so hard not to over eat and drink lots of water and eat more fruits. You can only have so much of yogurt and apples for dessert though. =/ I finally had to splurge a little and bought light chocolate ice cream. I had to! I am trying my hardest to get to bed earlier in the night but its not going so well yet. I figure, if I get to bed early maybe I won't get the late night munchies. But I get hungry, stomach grumbling and everything and water sometimes doesn't help. I hate feeling hungry all the time! I am trying my best but it sucks sometimes. I think I just need to exercise more. I don't see how a 20 minute workout (30day shred) will help me lose a lot of weight in only one month. I'd have to do it more than once a day! I also think I need to be more active but it's so hard when you are a stay at home mom, no job, no where to go really. Walking around here is like walking down a long white hall with no pictures on the wall and no one to talk to. Sure, there's houses to look at but I've seen all of them and there is usually no one out to talk to plus its winter now and there is definitely no one out walking much these days. So it's WII fit time I think. I've been wanting to get on that thing lately. I think I'm going to have to go look for that darn disc and pop it in tonight! :) Maybe that will help and I know my kids will have fun playing with me.

This Sunday I have an appointment with a personal trainer (included in my membership) for one hour! I really can't wait. I think it is going to be fun and I hope to work up a good sweat on Sunday! I have decently healthy meals planned this weekend as well. I'm trying to use up all my "bad" food if you consider white rice and regular pasta bad food. I don't want to put anything to waste so I have been trying hard to use everything up! I won't do what Jillian Michael's does...throw out all the bad food. I can't afford to do that. lol So I'll limit myself, eat it as healthy as I can make it. Then when its all gone, buy the good and healthier stuff. :) 

Well that's all for now. Got to get busy doing stuff. I got some thing going on and my kids daycare. I have to take some $$ to buy their own artwork! lol But I plan on putting it on my art wall! =) 

~L