Well I really have no where to go for support besides my blog here and I know no one but me is reading it. It's kind of hard not having any sort of support. Of course my husband supports me but not 100%. I mean, seriously....he still has sodas in the house and candy and chips and whatever else that's unhealthy. In my weakest moments I do go for a chocolate or sometimes a drink of soda. It's hard still having junk food in the house and not being able to do much about it. I told Bjørn that I will no longer buy him soda. He is on his own. I'll buy my own carbonated water though. I bought some good Farris lemon/lemongrass that tastes just like 7up except without all the sugar. It even tastes sweet to me because my taste buds are so used to water these days. Whenever I do drink something sweet like soda, it tastes super sweet to me.
But anyway, yesterday I told my parents that I've lost almost 20 pounds. It's about 18.5 pounds right now that I've lost. I am very proud of myself! Of course my parents only half believe me. I don't think they want to believe that I am losing weight. And all I am doing is eating right, and exercising. No sodas or sweets or high in fat midnight snacks. I try to cut off my food intake at around 8pm. If I want something after that I will stick to a small glass of orange juice or water or something. I am trying to go to bed earlier these days too even if it just means laying in bed watching shows on my iPod. :) I love my iPod!!!
Anyway, my dad told my mom yesterday that I shouldn't lose any more weight because I might pass out or something. Knowing my dad, he pretty much thinks it's unhealthy to lose any more weight than I already have. I told my mom that I am way over weight and I need to be closer to my ideal weight which is about 120 pounds. I'm short so I need to be a lot thinner and weighing less. I told them that I am NOT done losing weight. I will be a lot thinner next summer when they see me I'm sure. I mean, I've lost 20 pounds in 2 months just about. I'm not about to finish. In 4 months I should have lost at least 40 pounds. I'm aiming for a 60 pound weight loss by may but that's reaching a bit too far. I'll see how far I can take it. It's a slow process but it's ok. I'm still young. I'm glad I've started now at 30 then never starting at all! My biggest fear that got me onto this whole weight loss thing in the first place was....being 50-60 years old and still overweight but with really saggy skin everywhere. I do NOT want to be old and overweight. Ugh! That would be the worst.
But my dad really ticked me off. I mean, seriously...it's unhealthy to lose weight? How? When you lose weight you are even MORE healthier. He told me himself that he doesn't plan on losing any more weight because he says he needs that fat for his work. He still works so he thinks he needs to be overweight in order to get through his day. If only he knew that being thinner, or closer to your ideal weight, gives you much more energy so you can work even more. I'm sure he won't have very many knee problems either if only he lost at least 20 pounds. I'm sure he won't be as tired AND the most important thing.......I'm sure he would eventually get taken OFF his diabetes 2 medication. But does he believe me? No. One day in my future I am going to have to go to the Dr. with him just so I can ask him personally. One day in my future when I do look physically different. Hopefully by next summer.
I am really looking forward to seeing peoples faces when they see me in person next summer. Especially one person in particular....Charlene. She's been over weight for a long time and a long time ago she was losing weight but then gained it all back again. I know she's been on a roller coaster all her life. Wait til she sees me. I hope she notices a change though. Like .... a big one. I know this is one thing that motivates me. Keeps me going. I want to be able to tell her "I just exercise and watch what I eat. I don't drink soda anymore or eat sweets". "Diet and exercise" That's all it takes! I know she's taken diet pills in the past. She's always taken them.
One thing I'm really looking forward to though is having more confidence in myself. And all the shopping I'll get to do!!! Maybe I'll finally be able to own a little black dress! :) Ooo!!!
~L
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