New Weight Monday

I weighed myself this morning and it finally said 82.8.... 82's!!!!!!!! I'm going to try my best to keep it. I hope to get a workout sometime today. Maybe during Mikael's nap. We'll see. Yay! :)

Mad at myself...

I didn't exercise yesterday, and I didn't today either. I wanted to go to the gym today but I wanted to do so many other things here at home and I haven't exercised yet either. Oh well. :( I haven't eaten too much today and will definitely not eat anything else tonight either. Not even dessert. I weighed myself this morning and I weighed 83.7 =( I hate that!!! Of course I weigh myself all the time. And I think my body is going to be retaining water here very soon because of the witch. Blah! Being a girl sucks sometimes. I wish I could step it up and just exercise. I don't know. I somehow lost all my motivation...well maybe not all of it but some of it. After my Paris trip it seems is when it happened. I don't know what's wrong with me. It might also be because of the cold and snow outside. I hate going out into the cold. I'll see if I can go tomorrow, Saturday AND Sunday to the gym. Get away for a little while. :) I don't know. I'll see how much I weigh in the morning even  though I haven't worked out the past couple days. I try not to over eat so that should count as something right? hmmm.... =/

~L

Weigh in Wednesday

I forgot to weigh myself first thing this morning. It just slipped my mind. So I weighed myself at about 1:30 pm after I've had a small bowl of cereal, a mug of coffee, and my two chicken quesadillas with lots of salad in each of them, and some faris bris carbonated water. I love that stuff! And I weighed 84.2. But I will weigh myself again in the morning. I want to work out today but I'm too tired/lazy to do it. Ugh. I know I have to though especially now that I have a new goal in mind. To get to 81 kilos. =) OR 80 would be best actually. I'm aiming for Christmas for the new weight goal. But with Thanksgiving dinner and Christmas dinner coming up, I'm not so sure if I'll be able to do it. I'll have to really workout every single day on the weeks that I will be eating those foods. Hmm...

~L

New Goal

I just found out how much my dad weighs with his clothes and shoes on. 179 pounds. Well, looks like I have a new goal now. I really really want to get lower than his weight just so I can prove to myself, and to them, but mostly to myself that I CAN do it! So right now I'm at 83.4 kilos. I want to get down to 79.5. In pounds I'm at 183 pounds and want to get down to 175 pounds. I wonder how long it will take me? This should be enough motivation for me right now. I WILL exercise tomorrow. I WILL I WILL!!! I am desperate. I want to lose this damn weight! :) hehehe

Morning Weigh In

So today I got on the scale...again. It drives me crazy sometimes but I love keeping track of my weight loss :)
So today it said 83.4.  Yay! That's 183.5 pounds. Another .5 or more pounds until 182 point something. Can't wait!!!

Working out...

I usually have to push myself each day to exercise but I'm glad I do workout because I am seeing results now. Seriously. I can't wait to hit 82 kilos :) Or 80. 79.....Ahh.... Hopefully someday! I love looking forward to a new weight each week. But once a month my body retains water and I usually hate myself during those days because when I step on the scale I gain like two pounds in just a couple days. It's quite irritating but it disappears after a few days and I'm usually back to normal and that weight comes off again. I had to push myself to workout today. I hate working out but its just for 20 minutes so it's not that bad. but now I gotta shower because I'm all sweaty. It's a funny thing...I sweat more here at home than I do at the gym but at the gym I get some treadmill time. Hmm...

Rant/Vent...And other things...

Well I really have no where to go for support besides my blog here and I know no one but me is reading it. It's kind of hard not having any sort of support. Of course my husband supports me but not 100%. I mean, seriously....he still has sodas in the house and candy and chips and whatever else that's unhealthy. In my weakest moments I do go for a chocolate or sometimes a drink of soda. It's hard still having junk food in the house and not being able to do much about it. I told Bjørn that I will no longer buy him soda. He is on his own. I'll buy my own carbonated water though. I bought some good Farris lemon/lemongrass that tastes just like 7up except without all the sugar. It even tastes sweet to me because my taste buds are so used to water these days. Whenever I do drink something sweet like soda, it tastes super sweet to me.

But anyway, yesterday I told my parents that I've lost almost 20 pounds. It's about 18.5 pounds right now that I've lost. I am very proud of myself! Of course my parents only half believe me. I don't think they want to believe that I am losing weight. And all I am doing is eating right, and exercising. No sodas or sweets or high in fat midnight snacks. I try to cut off my food intake at around 8pm. If I want something after that I will stick to a small glass of orange juice or water or something. I am trying to go to bed earlier these days too even if it just means laying in bed watching shows on my iPod. :) I love my iPod!!!

Anyway, my dad told my mom yesterday that I shouldn't lose any more weight because I might pass out or something. Knowing my dad, he pretty much thinks it's unhealthy to lose any more weight than I already have. I told my mom that I am way over weight and I need to be closer to my ideal weight which is about 120 pounds. I'm short so I need to be a lot thinner and weighing less. I told them that I am NOT done losing weight. I will be a lot thinner next summer when they see me I'm sure. I mean, I've lost 20 pounds in 2 months just about. I'm not about to finish. In 4 months I should have lost at least 40 pounds. I'm aiming for a 60 pound weight loss by may but that's reaching a bit too far. I'll see how far I can take it. It's a slow process but it's ok. I'm still young. I'm glad I've started now at 30 then never starting at all! My biggest fear that got me onto this whole weight loss thing in the first place was....being 50-60 years old and still overweight but with really saggy skin everywhere. I do NOT want to be old and overweight. Ugh! That would be the worst.

But my dad really ticked me off. I mean, seriously...it's unhealthy to lose weight? How? When you lose weight you are even MORE healthier. He told me himself that he doesn't plan on losing any more weight because he says he needs that fat for his work. He still works so he thinks he needs to be overweight in order to get through his day. If only he knew that being thinner, or closer to your ideal weight, gives you much more energy so you can work even more. I'm sure he won't have very many knee problems either if only he lost at least 20 pounds. I'm sure he won't be as tired AND the most important thing.......I'm sure he would eventually get taken OFF his diabetes 2 medication. But does he believe me? No. One day in my future I am going to have to go to the Dr. with him just so I can ask him personally. One day in my future when I do look physically different. Hopefully by next summer.

I am really looking forward to seeing peoples faces when they see me in person next summer. Especially one person in particular....Charlene. She's been over weight for a long time and a long time ago she was losing weight but then gained it all back again. I know she's been on a roller coaster all her life. Wait til she sees me. I hope she notices a change though. Like .... a big one. I know this is one thing that motivates me. Keeps me going. I want to be able to tell her "I just exercise and watch what I eat. I don't drink soda anymore or eat sweets". "Diet and exercise" That's all it takes! I know she's taken diet pills in the past. She's always taken them.

One thing I'm really looking forward to though is having more confidence in myself. And all the shopping I'll get to do!!! Maybe I'll finally be able to own a little black dress! :) Ooo!!!

~L

Measurements

I should have done this a long time ago when I first started losing weight but I just did it now, somewhat. They aren't 100% exact since I had to measure myself but here are my measurements so far.


waist=95
hips=119
upper thigh (biggest part)=75
lower thigh=54
calf upper (right below knee)= 45
upper arm=40
lower arm (below elbow)=27
chest (under breasts)=91

I won't measure myself again until around Christmas. Hopefully I will lose at least a couple cm's more in certain places. :) Hmm but i'm not going to keep my hopes up. I'll just keep exercising and eating right. 

~L

New Weight

Well I haven't done much of a workout this past week. I've been a bit lazy I guess. I love being lazy sometimes. :) Anyway, yesterday morning I weighed myself and I weighed.....83.6!!!! This morning it was 83.9. OHhh I am loving the 83's!!! My goal now is to get to 82 point something and it will be a total of 10 kilos lost! How weird is that? I know I am losing weight slowly and it's a good thing it's going slow but ... I sometimes just don't see it. No one has said anything to me yet which makes me believe that I am not losing anything at all. It's kind of discouraging. My husband says he can tell but he's just being nice to me is what I think. Holly didn't say anything but then again she doesn't really notice things like that. No one at the AWC said anything about my weight loss. I guess you really can't tell. Oh well. I'll keep doing what I'm doing and lose as much as I can and hopefully someday sometime someone will tell me that I definitely do look different. That's all I want. :( Is that so much to ask? I don't know if there is a difference. I guess I should have measured myself before the weight loss...Oh well. I'll do it soon I think. And post it here. Gtg..dinner.

After my Vacation...Weight

Well my friend Holly arrived on the 5th of November. The day after we went to Paris and spent the weekend there walking around the city. It was raining off and on, sometimes it was bad and sometimes just a small drizzle which I could handle. =) I totally didn't diet during the time she was here. I don't know why really. I could have gone healthy but I figured I needed the calories because of all the walking we were going to be doing. I was right. This morning I weighed myself and I only weighed 84.1!!!! Amazing. Yesterday morning I weighed 84.4. Holly last used the scale in the green room and I am going to just leave it there so I can weigh myself in the mornings, after using the toilet first. I think that helps a bit. :) but 84.1!??? Weird. I've been eating lots just junk lately too. Today though, I am going back to exercising and dieting. Not really sure about the exercise since I got to clean this house from top to bottom again. I'll probably count that as my exercise for today. Tomorrow though I got to prepare myself a bit and head to the gym. I also need to go shopping for a park dress for Jeanette so I might do that afterwards. I am looking forward to going to the gym. I think it's nice to just get out a bit. Well, I just needed to blog my vacation and weight. I honestly was a bit scared that I was going to gain five pounds. I still might gain a pound or so but at least now I won't be eating so much junk. I have lots of junk in the house too. ugh! So much candy. I have to organize the kitchen a bit and hide it all. Bleh!

~L

Weigh in Wednesday Yesterday

Well, yesterday was Weigh in Wednesday. I kind of hoped I had gone down to 84 point something but I didn't. I was exactly at 85. And that's understandable because I didn't really exercise last week and kind of cheated on my diet. I ate a few pieces of candy. I felt horrible afterwards but what could I do about it. Like I have said before, I am not in a big huge rush to lose all this weight. I figure 1-2 pounds weight loss per weeks is sufficient for me.

This morning though, I wanted to weigh myself since last night I ate dinner but didn't have anything else after dinner. I figured I ate enough calories at dinner for the entire night. I was hungry though right before I went to bed but I ignored it. I should have just drank water but I was too tired to get up out of bed. :) So I hopped onto the scale this morning before getting dressed. And the scale said 84.9!!! Well, it's good that I'm finally in the 84's! That's what I was hoping for. Now, after today I won't be exercising much. I'll just have to watch what I eat big time. I'll be doing enough walking though so that will be my daily exercise this weekend and all next week. Like I said, I just have to watch what I eat. Sounds easier than it really is. Tomorrow for dinner for example, I'm making Fårikål or Elk steak. I haven't decided yet. Probably Elk Steak...or maybe Fårikål. Gah! I don't know! But whatever I do make has to be good :) and I'll have to just watch my intake. Stop the moment I am not hungry anymore.

I have lots to do today. I'm hoping that is enough exercise for today since I am not going to the gym. I've got to do laundry, wash all bed sheets and blankets in this house. Fix the blue room and especially the green room since that is where Holly is sleeping while she is here. Gosh I can't believe she is coming! :) No one has ever done this before. I am so excited! Paris! Here I come! But first...lots of housework. Hopefully I'll burn enough calories. If not then I might do some sort of exercise later today. I don't know though.

Well that's it for today.

~L

The day before

I know last night I completely cheated on my diet and ate I don't know how many calories worth of candy. I mostly ate it because I was feeling down that I couldn't take my little boy and little girl trick or treating. It was after all Halloween night. :-( So I hate a couple of chocolates and tonights dinner I think I overstuffed myself just a teeny bit. Oops. Oh well though. I did exercise earlier today. I hate doing those exercises sometimes but I know I feel better about myself afterwards. Well, tonight just for kicks I decided to weigh myself. I have been feeling slightly bloated all evening, probably because of dinner. Here I sit, at 11pm, getting a bit hungry again but I'm going to ignore it. Go drink some water, or saft, and go to bed. I'll eat some breakfast in the morning, get my kids ready and then right after head to the gym to break a sweat. :) Then I'll do a bit of shopping after that.

Anyway tonight the scale said 85kilos!!!!!! No point somethings. Just straight 85!!! OMG. I haven't even exercised the past few days and here I am at 85 kilos!!! I need to step it up a bit. I seriously can't wait to hit 84!!!!!! Ahhh!! I'm excited! :) I'll weigh myself again in the morning of course. I wonder what that's gonna say :)

goodnight!

~L